Week One- Check!

I completed first my week at home from the hospital. It's so weird, I feel like being in the ICU, being prodded and pocked all through the night, was so long ago. I already feel like I have had diabetes for so long. I suppose it is a good thing.

The first week had it's low and high; literally and figuratively. There were times when I just wanted to sit down in cry out of frustration. There were other times where I felt like I could manage this disease, that, no, it won't control me. I'm slowly getting used to the whole routine, of checking my blood sugar, giving myself insulin, and just being generally aware of how my body feels at all times. I really don't mind it all, but mostly because I know I have to do it to keep my body healthy.

The whole food and carb counting-stuff is going well, but it is hard. Last night for example, we had this roasted butternut squash that I really love. Figuring it is a vegetable, and therefore must be healthy and lo-carb, so I ate my heart's desire of it. Later that night my Mom informed I had eaten three servings of it for a whopping 45g of carbs. I was devastated, and the tears started rolling. I forget we all make mistakes, we are all humans.

This is a journey - and it is forcing me to be a more disciplned, balanced, and better person. In no way will I let diabetes limit me, it is just my extra little challenge.

And hey - Nick Jonas is pretty cute & he has diabetes ;)

-K.